For Life.

In one cold morning, where everything didn't go the way she wants.
A short period of industrial training.
She was hoping for a job, instead of just sitting around and do nothing.
At all.
There's nothing to write in her report since there's nothing she can do.
No one ever gives her any job.
Any single job.
Any simple one.
The only one she relied on to get a job, was on leave.
She took a break.
For two days.
Hence, she did nothing for two days in a row.

Today, she went to work.
She saw a figure.
It was someone who gave her something to do, three days ago.
She quietly and patiently waiting for her to give something to do.
She needs to do something.
She needs any kind of work.
Just to fill in her daily report.

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That's all she wrote.

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Hopeless love.

To someone I love,

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY.

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That's all she wrote.

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So close yet so far.

I thought we were more than close.
We were together for 3 years.
I thought we were all close to each other.
But I see, you don't even know me better.
I thought you know me well.
But I guess, we're just close.
But JUST CLOSE.
Without knowing each other.
So I didn't put you in my close friends list.
Because you're not qualified enough.
I only put those people who are really close to me.
Know me well and care about me.
And I only put those people who will ignore and won't care about me.
They won't give a damn about me.
They won't hurt me.
I won't put someone like you.
I'm hurt. So bad.
And I guess, you don't care either since you got somebody new, isn't it?

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That's all she wrote.

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Friends?

My tears running through my cheek
As soon as I'm on my way back home.
Just for the same reason.
Arrived, and went to my room right away.
I feel weak for awhile.
I feel useless and hopeless.
Now I know, it's hard to gain your strength and confidence back.

FRIENDSHIP.

Is it really matter?
Can you survive without A friend?
The phase when you need to survive alone.
I believe, my time has come.
All this while, I've been with my friends like, every time.
Always followed wherever they went, whenever they want.
I always say "Okay" for almost everything.

Now, it's time for me to stand alone.
I kind of afraid.
But that's life is all about.
Nobody can help you, but you, yourself.
Yes, someone DOES make me happy and feel appreciated.

There's a lyric in Avenged Sevenfold song that came in my mind when I remember something awful like this.

"There's nowhere to run and hide, when we living to die. 

Stuck alone inside your head, better off dead."

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That's all she wrote.

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What is life is all about?

Here I am,
Sitting right in front of desk and
Thinking of what my future hold.
Have you ever wonder what is this life is all about?
We grow old, day by day.
We learn, we work,
Some is getting married,
And some is still in learning process,
Through the year, some people changed,
Some remain the same.
We appreciate those who stay,
We get rid of negative people,
Appreciate nature & enjoy them.

When I was younger, around 13 to 16 years old,
I failed to control my emotion.
I get mad easily when people get on my nerves.
I get sad whenever someone does bad things to me.

Now that I'm getting older,
I sometimes managed to overcome my emotion.
Sometimes, I don't even care of what people think of me.
They said I'm weird.
I heard this kind of 'compliment' since I was in high school.
I get used to it.
Sometimes, I love the fact that I'm weirder than others,
Although I don't know what they meant by weird.

I don't even know what I'm doing right now since I can't study. Haha.
So everyone, wish me luck and pray for my happiness too!

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That's all she wrote.

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